I’m just a little bit overwhelm and truthfully, quite discouraged by this topic, marriage. Technically, marriage is suppose to be this unity between a man and a woman who are in love. But sad to say, thats not the concept of marriage anymore. People nowadays marry for unbearable reasons, such as money, power, security, etc. But to be honest, I can’t seem to understand why people do it. Its for a fact that when you die, you will not be carrying any of the power, money, or security with you. At the end of it all, all you will have is a filthy soul. I also do not understand why people are obligated to marry individuals, that quite frankly, does not meet their standards, but they do it because society is a one forceful bully. Or not even that, they marry because they don’t want to be alone. seriously, why would you feel lonely when you can build a long lasting relationship with god. Who will always be by your side. I just can’t seem to understand.
You know, it’s probably because the guardians, that I was born with, have made me question marriage. I now notice that they got into a relationship that they never wanted. The other day I asked my mom if she loved my father, and she said no. That is was more of an infatuation. And that now, it’s gone. At first I took it as a joke, but now I realize that it’s not a joke. Its actually quite sad. They don’t love one another, they just simply dont. And they don’t divorce one another just cause of the fact that maybe it’ll affect my brother and I. Or maybe, they just dont want to bring dishonor to our family’s name. It feels as though, their marriage, is a job to them and they both can’t wait to be retired from one another.
To be honest, I dont want to ever, ever have the sane relationship that my parents have. And to be truthful, I would never wish it upon any of my enemies. I just know, that I’m going to marry someone who I truly, deep down in my heart, love and who will always bring out the best out of me and vice versa. I just really hope that one day, I will wake up next to my husband and we will both look into each others eyes and still have that same passion we had when we first met or even more.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
